I've had feelings and visions "impressed" upon me since I was a very small child. I've known for a very long time that I could "hear" voices that weren't my own telling me things-things for my own good and given my stubborn nature it took until I was 18 to listen. I've felt and understood through these voices that I've known someone in a past life. I've seen Spirits. I've lived with a friendly Ghost who would just like to move my things and I had conversations with him. People seem to answer questions that I have not verbally asked. When I was about 13 I even levitated playing that game, "Light As A Feather Stiff As A Board" to the complete horror of all of the other girls at the slomber party. LOL It was the first time that I had ever played and all the girls had gone before I had and I wondered why they weren't levitating if that was the purpose. I guess that was my first experience with a form of meditation, although I had been hypnotized several times before this...And I suppose the list goes on and on.
Most of these things seem to be out of my control, and as SpringWolf puts it, we are all capable of these things-it is just that some of us are naturally dialed in. I have been approached by Psychic's who tell me I have "the gift". But I've never really known what to do with it, or how to figure it out...But as I get older, the more comfortable I become. I know I lose a lot of what is told in my dreams, being fully aware as they happen, but not paying attention when I wake up. Or, the memory comes to me later in the day. Lately though I've been pulled to figure out what seems to be very important with my past lives. I will do what SpringWolf says and mediate on it. Just having read and visualized the meditation my dreams are coming into clearer focus and I am comprehending more, so I am very excited to see what meditation brings.
If any of you may be wondering I have always considered myself a "Spirtual" person, however I have never follwed a religion. I wasn't brought up with one and try as I might to conform to the "Church" it just never felt "right". My definition of "Spiritual" has meant that I believe in things I cannot see, I cannot prove but I can feel. I believe in the forces Nature of the Universe-good and bad, I belive in Karma. Instant Karma is a favorite of mine since the hand of Karmic Law moves swiftly. Obviously, having felt the presence of what I could only describe as my "Guardian Angel" telling and showing me things I belive in Devine Love.
Anyway, I didn't mean to go on and on...I was just trying to give a little background info on me.
My reason for posting here is that I was wondering a couple of things. First of all, I was told by a Psychic that I was cursed. That it was a curse specific to Love. Of course she wanted about $200 to rid me of the curse, so it made it harder to believe but I cannot shake the possibility and the proposed person who cursed me-my Ex Mother In Law. You may laugh, but really--you don't know what she's capable of. And, no matter what I try I cannot hold on to romantic love. Athough I've kinda stopped trying-at least for now. Also, and I don't know if this is connected or not-but for years now, and I don't know exactly how long but about 7-10 years I have seen something daily that really weirds me out.
I tend to look at the clock at 12:13 PM and/or AM. I also look at it at 12:34 PM and/or AM.
My birthday is 12/13/72.
I have no idea what 12:34 might mean or stand for other than the obvious, 1234. Or if you add them up, 10. But I don't get that either. So, anyone has heard of this sort of thing. It doesn't matter how busy I am, what I'm doing or who I'm with or if I cared to see what time it was, or as a passing glance I look and it's either 12:13 or 12:34. But I can say that this happens at least 2 times a day, every day. When it started it was not as often, but after a week I couldn't help but notice it and it hasn't stopped since.
Well, if no one has a clue about this not to worry...I will meditate on it like the other things but I thought I'd give it a try.
Thanks!






