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Greetings again to all, Out of the fire rises a renewed me.. As some may notice the name change.. I felt it was time to shed my old skin so to speak. Some fairly lame things have happened in the last few weeks. My PTSD has seemed to get considerably worse, it feels as if I am back where I started at 3ish years ago. The anger, the madness, the insanity and the depression, the suicidal thoughts.. all seem to be back. The demon inside my head has broken out of his lil cage and and is going to TOWN on me. I have named him Chaos, It seems to fit since that what "he" does. And it seems easier to give it a name.. Instead of refer to it as "it" or whatever.. Cuz to some it may seem as if its just a feeling, to me it feels as if it is very real.. almost alive. But I did purchase my pentacle the other day, I also preformed my first ritual with it.. or shall I say for it.. passed it through fire..smoke..water.. dirt.. then laid it in some ashes of the lavender incense I was burning (which happened to be the smoke) then put it on.. And instantly I felt different.. Almost empowered.. almost even at peace.. I don't know if its all in my head or what.. but it was strange.. I chose the new name for a few different reasons.. I feel very connected to Ravens.. always have.. Grew up around them and they do seem to follow me. And I always feel at peace when I hear there call... As for the fire.. well I feel out of fire comes rebirth.. Forests burn down new forests grow in its place. And I feel as if i've been reborn to a point... So.. thats that.. It suits me I think.. I still play my flutes.. there a great joy to me, but.... I felt I needed this.. Thanks to all who decide to read my mindless dribble.. :-)